I'm in a really shitty place

[maltesersarethedevil]

I am in a really shitty place at the moment and drowning in debt (my own fault I know). I have found myself doing stupid shit like eating bread, whilst this isn't so dramatic to anyone else I've got coeliacs disease so it's going to make me very poorly.

I have contacted IAPT for help, they can't help me as I work 6 days a week, and they don't do a weekend service.

I'm not sure why I'm posting

Maybe you’re posting because you need something? Comfort, reassurance, company perhaps? All okay things to need

Maybe your spending and eating bread are ways of soothing yourself? There’s usually a need or want or desire at the root of everything we do - usually something we need to be happy or function or regulate ourselves. It’s all okay.

Maybe you want to make choices that serve you better in the longer term and that’s okay too. But don’t overlook what’s going on underneath for you - whatever it is that’s making you reach for bread and spending money. What are you feeling in those moments?

Like I hate myself and deserve punishment

the debt isn't new it's being paid

I'm so sorry op

Who has been helping you recently?

How have you been today?

It’s hard when you’re feeling like you’re going to be on a loan payment plan forever. but it sounds like you have it organised and the debt is being paid

You will win the race to end the debt -
it’s the slow and steady tortoise who makes it to the finish

Throw all bread & gluten products in the bin outside

Can you have one of your favourite coeliac free meals & start again

Hey, my sister was in crazy debt (like a 5 figure number) roughly 6 years ago. She spiralled and lost all control, she felt completely helpless and was in a really dark place over it. She really knuckled down and budgeted herself. She stopped buying the little things that at the end of the month really added up - like her coffee every morning that she stopped and bought on her way to work, her lunch out whilst on her lunch break and made those things at home and started just bringing them with her. She meal planned, stuck to it and stuck to a budget every week, never spent a penny over it. Limited driving places when it was possible she could walk etc. All this little things made a big difference. I'm happy to say today she is debt free and honestly living her best life with all the nicer things in life. I'm not great with advice and I don't know if this is helpful but I promise you as dark as it feels now there is a light at the end of the tunnel, I promise.