I feel like I should be taking life in my stride. I'm in my 30s with a wonderful husband, baby under 2 and I have a "good" job, live in a nice area, etc. But I am struggling with health anxiety and feelings of doom that arise every few months - genuine fears of illness/death. I seem to be in a cycle of feeling very positive about everything, then "life" happens and I think I've become less resilient at dealing with worries and knocks. I had a stint in hospital last year due to a frightening sudden illness which scared the life out of me and was traumatising, worsened due to my health anxiety. Although I am "cured" of that issue, it left me feeling vulnerable and possibly more anxious than average about infection, etc. Every few months I will get a niggle or ache and the thought of it burrows into my head like rot, it starts off as a small niggling worry then becomes a bigger worry then full scale panic and a depressed feeling, like I've spiralled so much thinking that I'm ill that I must be and my everyday enjoyment of life is then affected and I feel highly emotional about small things. Any advice? I got therapy a couple of years back but too skint to pay for more.