Histrionic personality disorder amongst pure stupidity

[fuckaroo]

I strongly believe I have this although not recognised here In the uk.
I have tried making an app with go and they are useless saying they only do same day appointments but you have to ring at 8.30am... lo and behold they are always engaged at that time or it jus rings out. I've explained to the receptionist it is about mental health too but still same response.

I've looked online at therapists... I can't afford them tbh and the two nhs free ones have stated that my issues are out of their control and are unable to help me.

On top of that I say to my dh that I will stop taking the piss and be normal not drawing attention to myself and I really mean it but somehow the next day I fuck up again

I need to rant. I want to cry. I want to scream. Is there anyway out apart from run away or jus stop which I can't seem to do

You need help and support so I'd push with your GP.
What makes you think you have histronic personality disorder? What fuck ups do you mean? You don't have to say obviously.

I'm definitely not an expert but a close family member was diagnosed as having HPD by the NHS.

Can someone else phone at 830 every day until they get through and get an appointment?

At my GP you have to phone from 8 to about 810 before you get into the queue, then spend about 20 minutes on hold.

You'll struggle to get therapy for HPD on the nhs unless you're putting yourself at risk so severe that you need to be under the care of the community mental health team.
Can you afford private therapy instead? If so I would search for schema therapists or clinical psychologists

Sorry I see you can't afford it. It might be worth turning up at the GP front doors to book an appointment? I'd also probably tell what the problems are rather than that you think you have HPD as that might automatically screen you out of nhs services (when it also might not be the case)