Feeling withdrawn

[Burritoe]

I’m fairly certain I struggle with anxiety and depression, I just haven’t had it diagnosed because I’m too scared to go back to the GP. Years ago I had quite severe PND, took antidepressants and finally saw light after two years. I stopped taking the antidepressants and now I’m reluctant to go back on them because of the significant weight gain they caused me. My body image is a major source of my low mood, I don’t want to add to that.
recently I have found I am withdrawn, find myself sitting in the house with my two young DC just watching. Not talking, or intervening when they’re arguing between them. It’s like I am totally burnt out. I don’t want to do anything except sit in a quiet room on my own if I can find the time.
i don’t even know why I am posting. I don’t know what to do. I want to change so badly, I want to be fit and healthy, and enjoy life with my beautiful dc. I just can’t pull myself together enough to get through it. I am trying to eat well and get enough sleep but that is it.
I welcome any thoughts or pointers. Thank you

Hi @Burritoe , have you tried doing some exercise (Start small, if you're not used to much physical activity). Even a bit of walking (brisk walking if you can, otherwise just walking). The spring is upon us, so walking in the sun will be great. But even walking in the rain (believe it or not!) has been shown to have great mental-health benefits. Let me know how you get on

@Burritoe I can relate to how you are feeling in part, I’m suffering from PND right now and feel so disconnected from the world. If you found antidepressants useful in the past it might be worth speaking to your gp about possibly going back on them but on a different type which wouldn’t cause weight gain? I was on citalopram for years and weight gain wasn’t a side effect x