Hi,
I have had multiple miscarriages in the past and then a difficult pregnancy. I started having obsessive worries while I was pregnant about the baby/ things happening in the world, I would wake up at 5 in the morning to watch the news and Google the news. After the baby was born I started worrying about my health and the babies health, then I move onto a new worry which depresses me. All of my worries centre around something happening to me / something happening to the baby/ us being apart. I feel like it took me so long to get him in my life and he’s so wanted but I can’t enjoy it because the second I wake up until the second I sleep I worry about the future/ things that have happened in the past. My brain can’t tell what’s real and what isn’t a genuine worry at the minute no matter how much my family reassure me and it’s depressing me so much. I feel like alls I do is Google what I’m worrying about sometimes it gives me reassurance and sometimes it makes me worse. The reassurance doesn’t last long at all and then I’m back to googling or crying to my family. I’ve tried antidepressants but they haven’t been any help, I’ve also tried counselling but I didn’t feel it would work for me. I’m starting to wonder if it’s OCD?