Don’t know why I’m posting in mumsnet as im
mot a mum. I’m 30, single and never had a partner. All the imaginable worries are in my head about never having my own family. I’ve also got pcos. I’ve got W job that’s very much made me put the rest of my life on hold, but I wouldn’t change that. I’m getting so sick of the pressures around me to be like everyone else and settle down with kids. Both younger sisters are on that path with the youngest telling my other sister she’s started trying for a baby and her bf is going to propose in a few months. When I try raise it to my mum and how hard it is (also work on a baby ward with parents all
younget then me) she acts as though I’m aspiring to become like my younger sisters, and “my time will come”. It makes me even more pissed because that’s not what I’m getting at , it’s the way the pressures of it all makes me
feel. I’m very strong willed and the last person to get into something just because everyone else is doing it. But then on the other hand there’s the worry of needing to freeze my eggs in case I wake up one day and missed it all completely. I see babies and feel nothing. But I want A family of my own. Love life dead as a doorknob and only ever thing that came close to a relationship was an abusive drug user. All my ex situationship are now in solid relationships. Makes me feel like I’m there for a good time not w long time. I was struggling on my 29th birthday a hell of a lot with all these thoughts, then had my sister start talking about how she wanted a child. It just compounded all my negative thoughts and I went home and self harmed that day. Both sisters have settled for partners who are essentially abusive, but just to say they’re in relationships. It’s starting to feel like I’m the only one in the world holding out for something decent here, and other than am content in my own company. But it’s these thoughts and feelings constantly causing me conflict. Took a mental health day from work today as I’m not coping much.