I just want to share some thoughts and feelings without judgement. Don't need advice, just want someone to talk to. FTM to 2 month old DD, breastfeeding exclusively.
Finding it hard to focus on anything because I never know when the next interruption will happen.
Feeling pretty low.
So tired, all the time.
Miss being pregnant.
Miss having control over my time.
Just want to watch a whole film uninterrupted, drink a lot of wine while doing so and then have a full night's sleep.
Always tired. Idk why. Possibly lack of stimulation and variety?
Looking forward to going back to work, back to routine and people and purpose.
Not bored of the house or neighbourhood though, surprisingly. Not consciously, at least.
There are people I can spend time with but they're not the same people I would want to spend time with. Where are my friends? They don't have kids yet.
Miss my husband. Miss long walks and talks. Miss sex but it still hurts.
Just want to not be in pain.
Everyone says make the most of this time and this age and I am and I will but I am also looking forward to DD being able to play more independently and talk and move and experience more of life. I like breastfeeding, it's very precious, but I'm looking forward to sharing my food with her. I'm looking forward to her being a person and not just a baby. I'm looking forward to being a parent and not just a mother.