Tell me I’m not alone in feeling like this

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I’ve suffered with anxiety for years… a really bad spell about 10 years ago, I went to counselling and learnt tools to cope.
it’s never really gone away just learnt to manage it.
im struggling at the moment not had it this bad for a long time.
I try really hard to not let my anxiety interfere with others so generally no one would know how bad it is, my family are all aware but find my anxieties odd, I can’t really explain them myself without sounding like a nutter. For example I hate having people in the house visitors ect. I suppose it’s because it’s my safe place.
I know they say talking helps but have you ever noticed that when you talk to someone family, friends ect it doesnt really help you just end up bringing them down or feeling guilty for burdening someone else?

I know what you mean. Whenever I try and discuss things with family it always feel like massive effort from side and them understanding very little or sometimes nothing at all. I recently heard a therapist on a video online ....he said tell your worries to people who can understand and don't tell them to those who you know can't .

*my side

Anxiety is an emotion and as such is controlled by your subconscious mind, rather than your logical, conscious thinking - that's why it often feels like something that's outside of your control.

This video on anxiety is really useful in explaining what it is, why you need it and how you can work with it rather than fight it;

A new referral for counselling might help, have you tried DBT?
It's an ongoing thing really. Seems to be more groups in the community in most places, book groups, swimming, walking etc. Trying a new past time will bring positive experiences. I know it's impossible to do anything when you're in the throes of anxiety but it really does help to make a complete change. Even doing these things alone will help you. Don't bother about having anyone round, it's not compulsory and lots of people need their home to be private and safe in order to decompress after a day of masking, which is exhausting.

Youre not alone x