Feel like shutting the world out

[Appleofmyeye05]

I feel like I’m having a tough time with my mental health at the moment. I feel like locking the door crawling into bed and turning my phone off! I can’t do that as I have a 3 year old to look after so on the mask must go but this week I feel so overwhelmed!! But I can’t pinpoint why!
my moods are up and down! I’m irritable! Innocent things my friends and family are doing I.e giving me advice or just popping over for a cuppa (probably because they can sense I’m not my usual self and they know I suffer with my MH) I feel like telling them to fuck off! Obviously I don’t say it, I just bite my tongue and wait for them to leave, whilst silently wishing they would bugger off home!! But on the other hand I do feel lonely at times and do enjoy others company just not when I’m feeling like this.

I am in therapy at the moment and will be bringing this up in my session this week but gosh I find it so draining sometimes! It’s like this week I’ve lost my ability to mask myself. I just wanted to be at home with my son or for us to be doing our own thing with no one else to consider, but seen as though we’ve had visitors I feel like I need a break from them for a good few days so I can recharge my social battery. Any one else relate?

Yes definitely. Can you say to your friends and family you are feeling overwhelmed and ask them to give you space for the next few days? You are not being selfish for asking that and shouldn't feel guilty. We all need a breather from time to time.

Thank you for making me feel like I’m not alone!
I was thinking about saying that but wasn’t sure if I would come across rude.
I babysat my niece on the Friday which was lovely but I was really starting to feel overwhelmed during that time and I think maybe that’s what set me off because it wasn’t my usual routine and she’s just started walking so needed eyes in the back of my head so I think I found it difficult, whilst still caring for my 3 year old. now 2 days later I feel I’m peaking with it. Also sometimes innocent comments which mean well I take personally, almost like an insult. I’m so glad I don’t let my mouth run away with me or I’d have no friends and rightly so x

You are certainly not rude by saying so. Sounds like you just need a few days to recharge and to not face people for a few days. Never feel guilty for looking after yourself.