I can't keep up with my emotions

[Belowhuns]

Towards the end of 2022, I'd started adopting some better habits to help my mental health, I'd prepare everything the night before, get straight out bed on the sound of my alarm, exercise and try to approach everything positively.

I started 2023 with that nasty flu and since then I've just not been able to get back into it all. This morning I'm worrying I won't be able to either. Everything is making me miserable. I am now the heaviest I have ever been, heavier than 9 months pregnant. I'm struggling to get up every morning. I scroll Instagram unable to be happy for anyone (of course they're just showing their best bits but I've totally lost that perspective).

None of my relationships are in good shape at the moment and I don't feel motivated to put them right.

Ive had counselling and medication in the past and found both to be short term fixes.

Maybe it's more motivation than mental health suffering but I'd love to know your tips on how you get out of these ruts? My life is not how I want it to be but I'm have difficulty visualising what I do want.

First thing - step away from Instagram (and other SM sites) - they don't add anything positive to your mood.

Secondly - be kind to yourself. You're recovering from a nasty illness and it will take time to get back to full health.

Third - Everything is making me miserable Write down a list of things that don't make you miserable, even small things like watching the birds in your garden or window shopping. Ask your imagination to help with ideas for improving your outlook - sounds woo but it will work.

Fourth - also write down the reasons why you want to change; specific reasons such as being able to go swimming/walking or to reduce the strain on your joints.

Fifth - love yourself. You would go out of your way to help a friend or family member, but you wouldn't do the same for someone you despise so give yourself a hug and be your own best friend.