Anxiety/citalopram help and support please

[Wishing1988]

Hi
I've posted a few times over the last few weeks but I thought I'd start a new thread because I'm looking for more support and this has been a great resource.
I've had bad anxiety for months - crying, unable to concentrate etc.
Bit the bullet and started taking 10mg citalopram just over two weeks ago. Generally it's stopped me crying and I've noticed my appetite improved but I don't feel that much better and morning anxiety is still really bad. It's common I have to come upstairs after breakfast because I can't take care of my son and my wife has to do it. I tend to feel better later in the day and the anxiety does shift but my mood is still low almost all the time.
Should I go up to 20mg? My doctor did suggest this but I was nervous so said id wait but wondering if I should just do that.
I'm worried the meds are making me feel worse.
I'm also doing CBT and counselling but I'm not sure either are helping much.

Any words of support?

@walkinthewoodstoday I feel like we're in really similar situations and are in this together! And even though your mum lives across the country is it possible to go there for a while? This happened to me before when we moved into our last place and I regretted it for months and I was incredibly unwell and I actually did go and stay with my mum for a few weeks (I didn't have dependents then) and it helped being looked after.
I'm sorry you're feeling like suicide is an option, if that ever feels like a prevalent feeling please ring your mum or the Samaritans or start a thread here! Quitting work and asking for support will be what you need to do. Sometimes I wish it would be taken out of my hands and I'd get diagnosed with something so then I knew I wouldn't have to suffer with my mental health much longer.

You will be able to move house again. Im prepared to make a loss on this house if I have to. It'll be worth my piece of mind if it's an affordable loss.

I don't know much about sleeping tablets. I think melatonin a good option and works for lots of people and doesn't have side effects like 'proper' sleeping tablets. I've used things like Nytol in the past which is histamine tablets. But when it comes to sleep as long as I get a few hours I can function and just put up with being tired.

Hopefully we will look back at this and be confused about why we were worried at all.

Thank you. You have no idea how much your messages help me to feel supported. We make mistakes. We are not failures. We should not feel embarrassed. I can move again, although might have to suck it up for 5 years or so and try not to worry about the house sale as I don't need to do it now!