Could this be ADHD?

[Woahhohoho]

I'm wanting to ring the dr but don't want to be laughed out of there. Does the below sound ADHD like or am I just shit at life and need to get a bloody grip on myself. It's a long read, sorry! I tried to bullet point with rubbish emojis...

▪️I'm a nightmare at procrastinating. Everything else is more important than the thing I really need to do which leads to me having to cram my work into 2 days to complete it by deadline.
▪️I'm always looking for the next thing to do and endlessly scroll social media
▪️My memory is shot.
▪️I can have a conversation and not listen to a word that has been said then have to ask for it to be repeated.
▪️I overshare
▪️I am mortified after most social interactions when I think back to what I've said. As a result I find it hard to speak to people, even family.
▪️My head is a thousand miles an hour and has a constant to do list.
▪️I'm a control freak
▪️I constantly clean but nothing gets done or looks any different despite writing lists
▪️I need really regular time away from people and if I don't get it I get very anxious and bad tempered
▪️At school my reports were that I was bright and had potential but that I was in my own world a lot of the time.
▪️I only achieved good grades in subjects where I could basically make it up, maths and science were really hard for me as my brain couldn't recall facts and figures.
▪️I never stop moving, not in a hyperactive way but foot tapping and moving my muscles.
▪️I always have great plans and lists but lose the momentum easily.
▪️Im up to my eyeballs in debt and have been since I was 18 and got my first credit card.
▪️I make great promises to pay stuff off but when it comes down to it I freeze and for some reason just can't do it. Some things need paying by phone to an actual person which seems to be massively daunting.

I have spoken to the GP before about my depression and anxiety and was prescribed citralopram which TBH made me worse.

I'm also early 40s so wondering if I'm peri. Plus 2 small kids, a permanently ill OH and quite a big house has stopped me being able to laser focus on me and I can't seem to get that back. I feel really lost.

Well almost everything you have said sounds exactly like me…worse than me really. I’m currently awaiting diagnosis on the NHS - so I don’t know for sure I have ADHD yet but was ADHD-y enough to be referred by the GP and then through an initial triage by mental health services.

So yes I’d say it’s worth talking to your GP. Mine was happy listen to me blather on.

I’m currently debating whether to go private as the NHS wait is 2 years.

Depends if you've always been like this ie since a young child, as it is a developmental condition. If so then yes it is likely you may have ADHD, equally it may be stress/ anxiety or even autism.

@Woahhohoho I can relate to a lot of the things on your list and I also wonder if I have adhd.
My self questioning came from a school analysis of my son's classroom behaviour.
I haven't gone down a diagnosis route as I wouldn't medicate myself (no shame in doing so, just not for me) so I have developed strategies to cope with myself.

I often wonder if I have always had adhd and that’s actually been my real life long issue and not your standard anxiety/depression? I haven’t been diagnosed but have ticked every bullet point that you’ve mentioned. I’m 50 and would love to know for sure as life is (and has always) been a massive struggle to me but I worry the gp will think I’m just jumping on a social media band wagon.

I've just been looking at a diagnosis questionaire. Many of these sounds like a fit for ADHD symptoms and that include both impulsive behaviour and distractability.

I really would recommend speaking to your GP - I know not all are great but I was pleasantly surprised with how I was listened to.

I just went in and said “I feel a bit silly coming to you with this as I’be got a decent job, family life yadda yadda but I’ve always found some things a struggle and the more I read about ADHD the more it chimes with my own experience and it would really help me to understand whether ADHD might be the reason I find things certain things incredibly hard.”

On the one hand the fact it’s all over social media makes me feel like I’m jumping on a band wagon but on the other hand I think “well if all these people actually have an ADHD diagnosis, surely that makes it more likely that I do to?”.