Don't want to meet friend, struggling mentally

[Alice558]

Hi everyone,
I just wanted some advice really......

I recently just left my job due to workplace mobbing and it was the worst year of my life honestly, i quit with no job as i was fortunately able to (I have savings) and i am now applying for other jobs again.

For the last 6 months my mental health has taken a huge nose dive, i mean really bad. When a wake up i start arguing with someone that isn't there, i mean i get really upset and make up situations in my head. I am 31 years old and live with my parents and i have a boyfriend. I feel like a complete failure.

Now, a friend that i use to be close with is coming down to stay to visit her sister but asked to hang out. We don't really talk that much anymore and i am ok with that. She hasn't done anything bad, however in the past, if you have great news her demeaner changes but if you have bad news, her eyes light up, she doesn't hide it very well. At the moment she has got a great job and i just feel like complete shit, i don't talk about my problems a lot with anyone but i am really dreading meeting up with her and looking for an excuse not to go and i just want to be alone as i sort myself out. I was just going to say i am sick, i just can't face it. She is the main one who initiates contact but i just don't feel like we have anything in common anymore.

I was thinking of going GP because i am really worried now.... Has anyone else been through anything like this??
Thank you

Definitely go to the GP
As to whether you should see your friend, that’s up to you. What’s the worse that could happen?

Oo, just reread and saw what you wrote about her eyes lighting up- I know what you mean, avoid!

OP do you mean you see people and talk to them - or having liek scenarios in your head? Or argue with a voice?
it’s normal when you have bad depression/ anxiety to overthink scenarios. If you are hearing stuff or feel like you are seeing anything I’d be getting in tomorrow and tell them honestly as this could be a culmination of things xx

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I'd say don't meet. Even if everything goes perfectly it's really a task to appear "normal" when you feel anything but. Plus she seems like a huge trigger.

Definitely see your gp and if I were you make an excuse and avoid the friend.I am in a similar situation with a ‘friend’-who I am starting to realise loves it when I am struggling with my depression and/or anxiety as she can advise/ criticise/ and generally act superior. So I am just constantly busy at the moment-often with my real friends who are helpful and sympathetic and who make me laugh and forget my worries for a while.when your mental health is suffering you need to be gentle on yourself and fill your life with positivity-that’s a tough call on a daily basis let alone when you pretty much know there will be a problem( as in if you saw the friend) So just concentrate on helping yourself get better.you are not a failure.you are just having a rough patch. You have some savings, a boyfriend and a place to live.you had a job(so are employable) but are in the process of changing it.you are young .all these are good things. But you need a helping hand at the moment-go to gp and if you do have trusted friends maybe reach out to them too.and your parents as well if you can. Massive hugs xx