I’m tired and scared

[MissUnknown97]

Ive been dealing with anxiety and depression for so long , but I feel like it’s something deeper than just depression.

I’ve been drinking a lot but last night was the last straw, I got drunk and my partner didn’t like it , kids were tucked in and asleep but he started an argument long story short I went into a crying fit about my mental health. Eventually we hugged it out. And today I couldn’t feel more worse

i tried calling my gp as I just restarted my AD. Tried to tell her I struggle to regulate my emotion and my anxiety is bad and I can’t sleep. She gave me antihistamines for the night ?

she gave me the crises team number but I’m scared to call them and give them too much information I don’t want to lose my kids cause of my mental health but I really need to talk to someone and get the right medication

most days I feel empty inside like I don’t know my purpose or anything about it ?, I have manic days where I go on a spending spree with gambling I get a high from it and once I lose my money it ruins my mood for days. My mood is up and down most days. I get angry over the slightest thing I’m thinking I might have BPD or EUPD think about harming myself over the slightest bad thing Even though I haven’t yet

please don’t judge , I need help and want to call crisis but I don’t want to say I have thought about harming myself. But what can crisis team do for me ?

Just because you might have BPD/EUPD and “shit coping behaviours” doesn’t mean those closest to you are supporting you in the way you need.

So, is your partner aiding your MH or chipping away at it?

I think the idea is probably that by talking to someone non-judgemental, the urge to hurt yourself will pass. Xx

I’ve worked in adult MH services. Don’t be afraid to ring the crisis team. They will not take your children off you. Asking for help will also help your kids have a happier mum. Good luck 🤞

No my partner isn’t supportive , most nights I have panic attacks and all I get is why are you anxious when nothing has happened. I can’t pick and choose when I have the attacks

I have a similar issue with my moods. I am medicated which helps take the edge off. Have you been able to talk to the Gp or an EAP?

I tried to explain to the GP my moods and all she said is wait for the Anti D go kick in. They never take the time to actually hear people out so now I have to call crises cause I’ve had enough. Will they be able to prescribe medication

So has the GP prescribed you something and if so youre already taking it? How long for?

It may be your GP doesnt understand how seriously this is impacting you. Can you call the crisis team and explain how this is affecting you and see what support options are available?

Keep talking on here too - we can hold your hand.

The GP only prescribed me sertraline last week so I tried to call again today and they gave me antihistamine to try and get me to sleep?
ive had enough to be honest

yes I’m gonna call them , thank you for the support and understanding

Is there anybody you can call or talk to, who may give you the strength to call the crisis team? Eg Samaritans?

Have a good look at the NHSwebsite so you can see how they work. Try and find out what criteria means they take your children away, so you can reassure yourself this won’t happen.

I have every sympathy for you. I am going through a divorce and my anxiety means I’m shutting down with paralysis instead of getting on with things for the solicitor.

My Dd went through a very bad patch when she was about 18/19. I knew it was a long wait on the NHS, and we were very fortunate that we could pay privately. She saw a Dr who put her on sertraline, and a therapist. She’s living a good and happy life now.

Try and do one baby step today towards the goal of getting help for yourself.

Have you tried the setraline or would you like to explore another support before trying it?

If you've taken the medicine it does take a little while and in the beginning can make you feel more delicate. That's normal and nothing wrong with you if that's what you're experiencing.

There is also a samaritans app which I've found really helpful in terms of logging what sets you off and what helps you.

Insight timer has free talks and meditations if you need something very quick. I prefer the talks to the meditations. It's also free.

It's okay to be tired and scared - there is a way forward x

I’m sorry OP!
The Antihistamines they gave you are the old generation and are sleeping tablets. I also take sertraline. I think there is other stuff you can take with the sertraline to get you through the next few weeks without feeling terrible. I wish I could help you…

thank you guys for all the messages , I’ve just picked up the kiddos from school and I’m gonna call the Crises team later wish me luck

Good luck OP. The meds take a while to kick in but they can be a literal life saver. I also did CBT.

Good luck OP. Let us know how you get on please.

Yeah I’ve been on sertraline before but I always had something else to take short term while I wait for the AD to kick in

I will hun x

hope you're ok, OP

I also hope you are ok x

It sounds to me like you need to revisit your GP, discuss your concerns and symptoms and ask for a psychiatric assessment. It may also be a good idea to keep a diary to chart your 'moods' daily and the impact it has on your life, which may provide more insight into your condition.

Please try not to use alcohol to self-medicate; in the long run, it will only worsen your condition.

It's really important to get the right diagnosis, to get the right sort of help.

In the meantime, you could try contacting MIND or IAPT if there is one near you.