feeling so down!

[katie5004]

im not depressed,just not happy with my life at the moment.i am 21 and my son is nearly3.Im still living with my mam and her partner and also my twin sister.i am waiting for a council house but have been for three years.Every1thinks i have it easy,live in a nice big house and have people around to help with oliver all the time,but its not like that.my mam and my sister cons
tantly compare him and remind me of things oliver cant do,he mayb is a little slow but im not to worried. me and my sis dont get on she likes to tell me that its my fault coz im a bad mother,which i try not to show it but realy upsets me.its just little things like if i say no to oliver having sweets some1 will say oh just let him have some and give him them,so they totally undermime me in front of him,i know they are just stupid little things but its getting me down,been crying a bit and getting realy snappy with oliver which i hate myself for coz i no its not his fault.the more i live in this house the worse its gettin.sorry for having a moan,cant even beleiv im writing this but already been crying today(no 1 is in the house)and just feeling like this more and more!

Hi Katie pls dont feel so down. I do know how u feel ,my life was same as your's i also have a big sis who was always telling me wat to do then i'd have a go at my mum,all of us would argue so much! I went into a hostel then got a house,when u do get ur house things will change alot,i got closer with my sis and havin the space was amazin but i did miss living with them,felt like i had to grow up really fast then there was bills to sort out and no1 there to watch little one 4 an hour when i needed peace,cleaning and lots of worry! I would'nt mind goin bk in time sometimes. My mum sadly passed away last nov. Its so hard. pls hun dont be that down i'm sure they love u and u wont be there 4eva x