Just under a lot of emotional strain right now and I will probably email the Samaritans for some comfort tonight. I just find it very hard to relate to people who have a significant other and/or children. But particularly a male significant other when they say they have severe anxiety. I can't even talk to anyone, i.e. a stranger. That's probably me hitting out unfairly but I still don't understand it.
Never been in a relationship as, quite literally, too much anxiety to get to know anyone. But also when group therapy is offered, if they have/had relationships, children, etc then obviously I will assume they don't have it as bad as me. Also the people with EUPD I have meet have been an attention seeking nightmare and incredibly loud (volume wise). I was in a supported housing house for women with mental health problems for five years. In general anyone shouting or being very vocal about things wasn't the one in genuine danger. Like the cry wolf story.
I don't know. I am just tired and grumpy at this stage. I do take medication and am thankful for it, duluxetine and risperidone. I have also taken olanzapine, citalopram, and others in the past. I just find it hard to stay afloat when I am low. It's not exactly like they tell type one diabetics to stay positive/positive thoughts, etc.
Either way have to shower and wash hair and pretend to be grateful for being picked up for a meal that I don't care about tomorrow. Human beings are not as good dogs for bring happiness. They're just not as cute, even the little ones (especially the little ones, why make human babies so ugly?!).