I suspect I have postnatal depression but I can’t get a doctor’s appointment, I can’t see a Health Visitor, My family and my husband just seem to be totally in denial about what is going on.
I tried ringing pandas and also Samaritans and there is no one there to answer calls today. I just don’t know what to do anymore my husband just puts me down makes me feel like I don’t matter. My parents are useless and don’t do anything to help in any meaningful way. I have my two beautiful children who I love more than anything but all I can think about is killing myself.
Over the years my relationship has been Has been dysfunctional with my husband he doesn’t support me emotionally in anyway whatsoever And belittles how I feel . just now I was crying to him and his response was that all I do is sit and cry.
He hasn’t taken the fact that I feel suicidal seriously, he’s not helped me get any help. He’s a horrible cold hearted man. So not only do I feel in a deep depression but also that my marriage is over. Prior to this is a very traumatic birth with my DD And a very stressful job with a toxic boss.
It all just feels too much I just want it all to end. What can I do?