I have 2 kids, one 3, one 18 months. I'm really struggling. I have no family around me. My sister in law helps out when she can but she's got her own children to deal with. Friends the same and also live far away. My husband has to work from the office and work evenings so I tend to be on my own after about 1 or 2pm. I also work 4 days a week. Bedtime is a struggle. I'm still breastfeeding and he won't go down without feeding. He's really really clingy, holds on to my legs all day, asks me to carry him, wants to be fed. The 3 year old has to amuse himself a lot of the time because this guy takes up so much of my energy. I cook all of the meals and take the "mental load" of the house. I've had one night out in 14 months. I was diagnosed with post natal depression and am on anti depressants - my life is just completely gone. My husband wants to help but just doesn't know how to, we obviously need to pay a mortgage and bills. This morning I lost it and threw a carton of milk on the floor and told him to stop crying - it's just constant whinging and whining. I honestly have really good patience and then on day 5 I get pushed over the edge. He won't sleep without me so at night when I get him down, I usually have to come back up twice to resettle him. The well is empty. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm currently sick and looking after 2 kids today, trapped in a house. I'm considering moving closer to my parents. I know this will pass but it's definitely not passing quick enough and my sanity can't last that much longer. Any advice appreciated.