I hate my job I've only been there 11 weeks. The atmosphere is very nasty people openly say why they don't like eachother she's fat, she smells etc..
I answer customer calls about product enquires. I've had no training. I don't know what most of the products are I have to learn as I go along. I have to hope someone wants to help me, usually they don't so I just sound like a clueless idiot on the phone. I have work files to open and complete but most of the time the rest of the team have already gone on and dealt with it. I'm only trained to answer a very small amount. The rest is guessing. I spend most days pretending to look busy as I have no work to do.. or the work that is there I don't know how to do it. I absolutely dread answering the phone.
I have had anxiety for the past 4 years which I take medication for, for 4 years now. I've had to double my dose to get through the work day. It's not really helping I go home worrying about authorising refunds etc thinking I've made loads of mistakes. Every morning I go to work thinking I'm going to get told off for messing up. Narky emails are being sent now to the whole group about how such and such should have been done differently.. I recognise it as things I should have done differently. My training shouldn't consist of narky emails. I'm crying now before I go to work, after work. I'm not sleeping properly. I'm feeling myself getting teary in work. The critical voices in my head are constant. I used to be able to ignore it but it's becoming harder. They are becoming nastier and no one understands.
My husband doesn't understand how I'm feeling at all.
I work 5 days a week. I've also got a chronic pain condition due to an accident I had as a child. I come home in so much pain that I just go to bed. I am a disabled person. I have been for years but in work I feel like I have to try hide it or I will lose my job. I absolutely hate my life now. I'm so miserable. My husband earns enough for us to both live off so now our son started nursery he wanted me to go back to work as he said it's not fair he is the only one working.
My disability causes me to loose control of my bladder. I'm on medication now but I still leak a bit.. so have to wear pads sorry too much info. But I feel like people notice I'm off to the toilet every hour.
I have a disabled parking badge as I'm in so much pain when I walk. But husband takes the car to work and I'm having to get a bus to and from work. It's agony.
I get a small amount of disability benefit because my condition limits me. I can't even manage a supermarket shop by myself but now I'm getting a bus to work 5 days a week as well as back and forth to nursery. I usually walk with a stick but I'm not taking it to work as I'm only late 30s.. and people don't see me as disabled so I just limp around.
I used to have anorexia as a kid, it was a result of the stress after the accident I stopped eating. My appetite has gone completely. I don't eat in work as I hate people seeing me eat. We have to eat at our desks with people sat both sides to us there's no break area. Some people sit in their cars but I don't have my car. I go all day too embarrassed to eat my lunch.
I think I'm going to end up being sectioned. I'm not coping