I've written on here before. Husband has suffered from a psychotic breakdown /psychotic depression for the past six months, but for years before this has been on a slow decline withdrawing from family/friends/socialising /being off work etc.
Prior to this happening, for the past few years you would describe him as a Victor meldrew character. Quite miserble, no fun in him, boring, no hobbies, very opinionated on things, old before his time.
He finally engaged with the gp and Medical professionals and is now on anti depressants and anti psychotics. We have the involvement of the early intervention team who deal specifically with psychosis patients. The team is great, they have nurses, psychiatrists, psychologist, therapists, can help with practical things if you need it and work stuff if required. They are visiting our home weekly to check he's OK and check his progress.
He is doing very well, his mood has lifted and I would no longer say he was depressed. He's still hearing voices etc, that's what the anti psychotics are for. He is nowhere near where we want him to he but making good progress. He still isn't working or socialising etc as its far too soon but he has been shopping etc.he is still completely serious, doesn't go out, doesn't see anyone, very difficult to be around.
The nurse has visited us today & gone through some questionnaires with him h. His answers were quite frankly rediculous. He was basically saying that he now thinks he's fixed, he's 100% happy with how his mental health is right now, and doesn't even think he needs the tablets. It is so, so frustrating. I had to fight back tears and it was obvious to the nurse. She's sending me for some counselling. He told her he was thinking of coming off the tablets. He's only been on them a few weeks.
His mood is only just OK, as long as everything in the house is hunky dory. As a husband and to be around generally he's not the man I want. I know this makes me sound awful. We have no fun together, no life together, no enjoyment of anything together. We just get through each days practicalities then on to the next. We arent intimate and haven't been for Years.theres been so much damage done to our marriage and to hear him say he wants to stop treatment now when he's hardly started is just heartbreaking. I know its an illness, but even the nurse spoke to me and said she thinks alot of this is just how he is or has become & he'll never recover the level that I want. I'm giving him so much support, looking after him, kids, house, finances etc whilst he basically checked out for 6 months. I hate our lives the way they are and I don't see how it will improve when his attitude is like that