chatline for low but not suicidal?

[WinterFoxes]

Is there somewhere you can call for a chat when you feel very low but not suicidal? I don't want to bother the Samaritans. I have no therapist. Hate burdening family and friends - that's not how I cope.

is there some MH chatline?

Call the Samaritans. You really don’t have to be suicidal, they are there for people in your position too. And be aware that feeling of not wanting to bother people/ not deserving their time may be coming from low mood rather than a logical thought if that makes sense.

hope you feel a bit better soon, if not do contact your GP for a proper assessment and to make a plan.

plus of course chat here if you’d like!

You could call Saneline.
SANEline is a national out-of-hours mental health helpline offering specialist emotional support, guidance and information to anyone affected by mental illness, including family, friends and carers. We are normally open every day of the year from 4pm to 10pm on 0300 304 7000. Our trained helpline volunteers aim to be empathic and non-judgemental, providing space and time for you to talk about your mental health, or the mental health of someone close to you.

Ring the samaritans - they are they to talk, not just for suicide tendancies.

Hope you feel better soon.

Thank you for suggestions. And @Balloonsandroses for saying it's OK to talk on here. Just had a big mood dip. Hadn't left the house in 3 days, couldn't see the point in anything, feeling like a MASSIVE failure in life. Dragged myself out to nearby town to try Christmas shopping this afternoon but just wandered like a zombie unable to make a decision and then came home.

I'm fat.
I'm underemployed.
I'm a spectacular underachiever.
and what's hurting most of all is that DS is having really bad MH struggles right now.

I devoted twenty years to being the bets parent I could be, so this wouldn't happen. I had a very problematic upbringing and i always thought that was what caused my severe bouts of depression. So I decided to learn how to be a really good mum - so I thought. I read loads of books so I wouldn't repeat how I'd been raised. I was always present. Only worked PT so there'd be someone at hime showing an interest, supporting them if they had problems at school, making sure they always had clean clothes and shoes that fitted and warm coats etc, that they cleaned their teeth and had baths and comfortable cosy beds etc - all the stuff I didnlt have as a child that made me feel second best to my friends. I stupidly thought that would break the cycle of MH problems,. But it didn't. So what's the point? Twenty years of real vigilance all day every day, making sure I didn't neglect ignore, belittle or rage at my DC, only to find DS having all the same problems I had.

It sounds like you’ve been a fantastic parent, and are continuing to be.

Think of some other good mums you know. Would you blame them if their DCs had MH problems? Probably not… so there’s no need to blame yourself either.

Hope you keep talking on here and get lots of solidarity and support.

Thank you @SalviaOfficinalis. That's very kind.