I don’t know what’s wrong with me

[Chuckle94]

I feel so anxious and paranoid all the time that it is actually effecting my whole life. I constantly feel like I am being judged or even my children are. I have no idea why I feel this way but it’s got the point I can’t ever relax.

was stood close to some people in town earlier and they looked in our direction and turned around and laughed and I thought they were talking about us. I have no idea if they were, or what they said but it played on my mind and it ruined my whole day. I couldn’t think of a reason why they would laugh but I’ve really convinced myself they were laughing at us.

sometimes I can be somewhere and feel a really strong urge to just leave, like I need to just get away. I am so exhausted from feeling like this. I want to be normal again and care free. I know I sound so ridiculous but what is wrong with me??

I know you maybe thinking I should get a grip and trust me I really want to as well but i can’t stop overthinking and worrying all the time, especially about my children. What should I do?

It sounds like a specific type of anxiety. Are you anxious in other areas of your life? Have you been to see your GP? Or could you see if there are NHS mental health services in your area you can self refer to? I did this for health anxiety and had a short course of Cognitive Behaviour Therapy CBT which was really helpful in giving me techniques to deal with my anxiety.

Have a look at this video about anxiety;

sometimes I can be somewhere and feel a really strong urge to just leave, like I need to just get away

When did this begin? Were you 'trapped' in situations you felt you couldn't escape from as a child? Something started this, what was the trigger?

I used to be exactly like this. GP put me on SSRIs after having a baby sent me even more loopy and it completely sorted me out.

I was on them for years, came off them recently but might go back on them as these kinds of feelings are becoming more frequent again. A low dose is all that's needed and it literally chills you out and sets you to 'normal' levels of worry and anxiety.

What did the last persons deleted comment say?

There’s been a troll posting (and being deleted) on lots of posts on Mental Health the last few days. I didn’t see the post but please try to ignore that poster - they are clearly not here to seek or give support.

Oh yes I’ve just noticed that.
what a weirdo. Thanks for replying x

How are you feeling today OP? Have you thought about seeing your GP?

I’m going to the doctors today x

That’s good to hear OP. It’s not easy. How did you get on?

I didn’t go in the end but really should of

Oh @Chuckle94 Why didn’t you go? Were you feeling anxious about talking to the GP? Worried about medicine being suggested? I remember when I first went to the GP for help with depression/anxiety feeling it was such a massive, irreversible step into another existence. But it really isn’t, you can take their advice or not, try medication and stop if you don’t like it.

Are you thinking of making another appointment?

There might be a self referral NHS well-being service in your area. I have used my local one and had a course of CBT which was very helpful. Here’s one in Nottinghamshire just as an example
https://www.nottinghamshirehealthcare.nhs.uk/letstalkwellbeing

How are you feeling today?