I feel like I'm losing my mind and my self

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I'm a mess.my teenage eating disorder has come raging back. I'm crying all the time. Exhausted. Insecure. Hate how I look. Struggling to see my worth.

It's like the most extreme PMT only I'm on day 4 of my cycle and I should be feeling the best I feel all month currently - glossy mane and tail, bouncy, energetic. Instead I feel sad and old and fat and full of self loathing.

I just can't stop crying. Thankfully I'm wfh today. Just sobbing as I go through PowerPoints.

I've told DP who's abroad currently and he's sent the most supportive lovely message, which just made me cry again.

I'm 39. Is this normal right now? I thought I'd get a few more years.

Hi, how are you feeling today?
I am 40, MH not great. I don't know if it's an age thing, or a situation thing (don't ask!).
Normal or not I don't think you need to suffer, do you feel able to speak to your GP?

I tried yesterday but it didn’t work out . Had a good chat with DP who is lovely and very supportive and I’m doing a bit better today but still feel a bit … off

sorry you’re in the same boat. it’s crap

I'm so glad your DP is being supportive - when will he be home? Can he maybe go to the GP with you?

It IS crap, isn't it? I don't think the weather helps, or maybe that's just me!