What's the point?

[ExistingNotLiving]

What's the point of my continued existence? I have no friends, I'm a burden to the few remaining family members who still bother with me and I'm a drain on society. I am completely worthless. The only reason I'm still alive is because I'm too much of a coward to do anything about it.

You need to seek professional counselling.

These feelings won't last forever. I know it seems like they will. I have been where you are, I still have those feelings sometimes. Have you seen a doctor? Medication could help. Take today hour by hour.

Yes I'm taking medication. Yes, I've had counselling. CBT - think happy thoughts. Yes, I've asked for more help but unless you actually harm yourself they don't want to know. Realistically I know these feelings won't last forever, but I also know that they will keep coming back. Every day is a constant battle to distract myself so I don't think the bad thoughts. Today, I am losing.

Could your medication need a review? I've been on a lot of different medications this year trying to get on top of my anxiety and depression. Currently withdrawing from citalopram and olanzapine and starting on sertraline. I'm very low today but hoping it's just the meds messing with my head.