Thanks for your comments - am just going to move post to somewhere it is named - am losing all sense too it would seem! I have made lists, but seems to get put off when I only achive half of what I had hoped to - I know, I know, put less on it or do less, but it doesnt always seem that easy! DCs love gparents loads and would feel harsh reducing contact, especially at such a hard time for them, but am starting to feel this would help matters. ANyway, thank you for your comments
By clouisewood on Tue 29-Jan-08 15:29:31
Just to say that I read your post. It sounds like you have a lot of pressure on you at the moment. When i've felt like this in the past i've made myself a list of things to achieve each day...have you tried doing this? It sounds as though all this stress isn't doing your health any favours. Also, have you thought about cutting back on contact about if your parents are making you feel so unhappy? I hope things improve for u.
By needinginspiration on Tue 29-Jan-08 15:14:57
Ok, not sure I even want to be posting this, or putting everything into words, but think it might help. Am very confused, upset and have name changed as think it might help. Theres a lot going on at the moment. Dcs havent been 100% recently with the winter bugs etc, and I have suffered on and off from IBS and stress induced stuff which doesnt help and leaves me feeling very churned up and sick however hard I try (or however many tablets I take!) Have still got grandparents of my own, 2 of whom are very ill and close to death - my own parents are not dealing with this very well and being qite unreasonable to me, I left my old job recently, without another lined up and need to get back into work but have so many other pressures I jst dont want to think about it... have got lots of other committments it is much easier to think baout than face reality. My mum seems to be treating me like I am just an inconvenience and this is rubbing of on the dcs and feel I am being awkward towards dh which isnt fair. I try to switxh off and leave problems at the other end of the phone etc, but cant help holding onto them. Am getting short with the children, feel like crying all the time, am permanently nervous, and annoyed, and upset -I used to work with childen and didnt quite end up in the right job, but cant even work out exactly what I would do in an ideal world - am quite a happy person and still put on a show for others so noone can tell anything wrong, but this seems to make me feel worse about me inside. Ony feel happy if I am away from home, and everything and helping someone else - I'm not even sure this is even the right place to post, or how much it would help - juts feel like I am swimming upstream at the moment, and need a bit of a prop.... Any techniques to get back on top of everything (and we havent even got to the housework etc) would be great.