I've been really struggling over the past few weeks with a resurgence of anxiety, and it's been unbearable for the past few days with horrible panic attacks and sad thoughts.
The panic attacks lats for hours, and then all these horrible thoughts come Into my head about everyone I love dying one day, and other things that haven't even happened yet. I feel convinced that I will never feel normal again. In those moments I feel like I could do something stupid to take the pain away, it's like sadness I've never experienced before, like ever but of grief I will experience across my whole life is happening in one single moment and it's agony.
I'm on 40mg propanolol up to 3 times a day, I've had some days where I've taken more that this just to try and feel better.
DP has to go to work this evening, I don't want to be left alone in case the thoughts come back. I don't know ig I should phone 111 nd try and speak to an out of hours Gp but I don't even know if there's anything they could do to help.