Anxiety & a broken heart

[singlemammychangingtheworld]

A long rant.
I started (and finished) new medication last week which suppressed my appetite. Cue the fear of not being able to eat. Suppressed appetite is a trigger for my anxiety to go haywire. and it did. The same day, my partner, having been suffering with his own demons, admitted to having depression and needing to be on his own while he gets through it himself.
I'm sick, exhausted, heartbroken and trawling the internet for special foods, creams, meditations, podcasts ANYTHING that will make this feeling go away. I've been to the doctor, I'm on anxiety meds, Ive been seeing a therapist since January.
I've cancelled going to a family wedding and a girls night out this week. I'm in work and I feel like I'm getting a tiny bit better every day but I feel so completely lost. I can't separate my feelings. I feel like I'm pushing the breakup out of my head until I get my anxiety under control but then I'm afraid I'm putting too much focus and attention on the anxiety.
I don't want to be around anyone but I don't want to be alone either.

I am so sorry no one has replied to
this OP. It sounds to me like you’re trying to put one foot in front of the other and dealing with your very real and physical anxiety first before tackling your relationship. In my mind, it’s quite a sensible thing, a bit like strapping on a seatbelt before starting the engine.
The fact that you’ve cancelled the bigger events this weekend also indicates you have exerted some control over your environment and you know your triggers. I am so sorry to hear about your broken heart though. Is there any chance that there is some sort of co-dependency going on in the relationship? I hope someone much more well informed comes on in a minute. Keep taking care of yourself. One day at a time x

Thank you trussia.
I wasn't sure what response i would get, if any.
Mental health issues are not new to me but they are to him so there could be dome dependency there.
Im slowely trying to be social but big gatherings are definitely not in the pipeline for now.

Thank you for responsing. It means a lot

Am also going through break up heart break and can empathise with a lot of this. While I know it’s unhealthy to ruminate I also find socialising distressing because of just how much it intensifies what I’m going back to. How long has it been op?

Thank you.

Its been 6 days since we broke up and 5 days since we last spoke.

Getting ever so slightly easier by day but i think its because my anxiety is going down and my appetite is coming back.

Im sorry to hear you're going through this too. I wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy.
How long has it been for you?

nearly 3 months… sorry!

y really do need time with friends and close family, people you can trust and be honest about your feelings too.

xx