I’m really not ok, where can I access support online? Nowhere to turn

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I’m really really not ok.
I have felt like this for about 2 months now getting progressively worse. There are a number of situational factors that have pushed this.
Ive told my husband and parents almost daily how I’m really not ok and they are supportive but obviously they can’t fix it. Things are getting worse by the day and I feel incredibly isolated and lost.
I can’t find the words/nerve to tell any of my friends, I feel like nobody really wants to be my friend anyway.
I just don’t know where to turn. I’m scared.

You need to go to your GP and explain how you’re feeling. A course of anti-depressants will likely help with those dark thoughts that nobody wants to be your friends. They will also know of local support services, you may be eligible for some other support although waiting lists are often long.

I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time. It's obvious you're not getting the professional support you need. Do you fear for your own safety over the weekend , do you feel some immediate help?

If you feel like you could, take the time this weekend and sit your husband down and reiterate and emphasise that the situation is getting worse and together you can come up with a plan to contact your GP first thing Monday morning and go speak to your doctor together (or alone if that makes you feel more comfortable). I know how hard it is to feel like you're not coping but don't want to reach out for help because of pride or you don't want to cause a fuss or disrupt other's lives, scared they won't understand.

If you feel in need of more immediate help because of intrusive or suicidal thoughts, please call out of hours doctors or 111 who will be able point you in the right direction on mental health services in your area.

Sincerely hope you get all the help and support you need and start to feel better soon x

Call the Samaritans. Have read lots of people saying it helped. Good luck.

The charity Mind has a lot of resources like courses and groups depending on where you are. I did a course on anxiety and have been to anxiety support groups which I found helpful just knowing there are others in the same position. Also go to your GP, they may prescribe pills and can refer you for counselling. Well done for taking your mental health seriously OP and best of luck.

Please see your GP. I did at the beginning of 2021 and it changed my life. Anti-depressants can't change situational factors, but it can change the way you react to them and deal with those difficult situations.

Now, so much more goes over my head that I would have had an absolute breakdown about previously.

You also have the option for counselling/CBT as well which I've heard can be useful but never appealed to me personally.

You can and will feel better - I promise - but you have to take those very brave first steps to get the ball rolling.

Try your best to do the opposite of how you feel.

"There is no point asking for help. My friends won't help or care" --> Ask for help and open up!

"I just want to stay in bed all day" ---> Get out for fresh air or ocupy yourself if you can.

"My problems are not important enough to bother a GP about" ---> Enquire about local support!

And talk to us. Sorry you are feeling so low OP. We are here to listen to you. Also try and tell your family what you need from them.

If you want digital help right now, text Shout 85258 giveusashout.org

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