Can it get better?

[Ontheedge31]

hello.

I was wondering if anyone had ever been through similar and could maybe share their experiences with me. For the last 3 months I have been really suffering with my mental health, I am on sertraline which has helped a bit but I’m so miserable and I don’t know how I can carry on. For the last few weeks I’ve been thinking about how I could kill myself but I can’t bring myself to do it to my daughter (have researched the impacts of suicide on children), I know it’s something she would never recover from and I can’t do that to her. I’ve thought about ways i could make it look accidental but can’t bear for it not to work and for her to think her mum didn’t love her enough to not want to live for her.

I know how incredibly selfish that sounds but I’m just at breaking point. Has anyone ever felt like this before and came out the other side?

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I know it doesn't feel like it now but it won't always be like this, you won't always feel this way. I went through some pretty shitty PND and it took a while for a) the right meds to get to work and b) me to regain enough confidence to assert myself to make some big changes in my situation. There were days where I could quite serenely have walked into the sea and kept going. It felt so bleak. Life now feels brighter than I believed it ever could at one point. This time of the year is always worst for me but my worst days now are nothing compared to my not so bad days then.

Hold on. You are not only needed, but wanted and loved. Day by day lovely xx

Continue with your meds
call your GP ad ask for an urgent call back
be honest with the GP and tell them everything, you could be needed a different medication.

I had mine changed after a month of no improvement, I’ve been on the same ones for since Aug 2021 and regularly medication reviews this month I’ve actually felt kinda normal which I haven’t for over a year. It all takes time.