Just needed an outlet
My problems are all terribly first world and I don't want to piss anyone off
I just wonder sometimes why things don't feel better
Because on paper, they are fine.
I shouted at my mum today - admittedly it's about an ongoing problem that I've tried to get her to deal with for ages. So that frustration is real, and I believe, justified. But shouting at an 83 year old seems wrong.
I feel guilty for being unhappy when others are struggling to pay bills. I do also feel a failure in the eyes of society. And I am lonely. And no idea how to process how hard lockdown hit me.
I don't want to try therapy again as it's just paying for a shoulder to cry on.
Thanks for listening.