Hi Everyone,
Wanted to have an honest discussion about this journey in a safe space. Will try to articulate to my best ability - after two losses I was petrified of getting pregnant again, simply because it's such an unbearable pain to go through.
Once we found out we were successful, I was at my docs office every week making sure the baby is still there, the heart is beating and everything's going according to plan. I've chilled out now at 23 weeks but the fear is always there.
Now that fear aside - I never felt overtly maternal nor I particularly like kids, so I have a question for fellow mamas...
Is it normal to feel detached from your baby? I read and hear about all these women spiritually connecting to their uterus and their baby as it grows inside of them and I just find that to be the most bonkers thing ever. I feel love and excitement, but as far as the baby is concerned, he is completely alien to me emotionally. I want to love and nurture this baby, but am so over pregnancy and everything that comes with it.
Has anyone had any experience with disassociation/detachment during pregnancy reflecting onto their child's emotional development?