So I have really bad anxiety at the moment, normal reaction to quite a few things that have happened recently, normal life events but I have found them overwhelming.
Anyway over the last couple of weeks I have been having intrusive thoughts, the sort of thoughts that would normally be fleeting but once they are in my mind they take hold and I can't shake them. Things like what if dd can't get a taxi after a night out which will then unfold into a horrific scenario which I can't stop thinking about until she walks through the door.
I think this will pass, I know from experience that once bad things don't happen for so long anxiety sort of fades although I've not had the thoughts before.
I have quite a stressful job and 2 teen dds taking on new adventures, I'm very careful to make sure they don't know about this so it doesn't affect there new freedom.
Dh is great and would be very supportive but I don't want to worry him.
I have found the best way to deal at the moment is to keep busy constantly so haven't got time to have these thoughts but I'm tired, I just want to sit down and relax.
I decided a couple of weeks ago to try and sort my mind out by making sure the house and garden are perfect and that I work out as much as I can. I'm normally very good at recognising when my mental health is not so good and doing the right things to get it back on tracks.
At the moment I'm ok for a couple of hours and then something will happen, something tiny that normally wouldn't matter and I spiral. I feel sick and panicked. I've started raking kalms the minute I feel it starting but I'm wondering if I should go to the gp.
I'm wondering if I should ask for some medication but I'm also worried as I'm always tired anyway and don't want anything that's going to make me more tired. I can't do my job tired. And the girls need so much emotional support at the moment.
I'm not really sure why I'm posting this just wanted to put it out there. Maybe by acknowledging it it will help.
I have notebooks all over the place where I try to sort my head out and it normally works.