So the past while I have been going through a very difficult time. I was diagnosed with ADHD a while ago which helped to explain so much for me, but as a result I deal with crippling anxiety all the time. I take medication but it has limited effect.
Anyway I had been feeling like ctap for a while and decided to do something to cheer myself up. I went for a consultation about a skin treatment I was interested in but sadly the nurse there made me feel even more crap about myself and did nothing but insult me, saying I had 1 eye bigger than the other (I've had an eye condition since birth and its already something I'm very self conscious about), that I "looked tired" and in general could find nothing positive or kind to say. I ended up leaving without booking an appointment. It all left me feeling really crap because my self esteem is already on the floor. I used to be reasonably attractive but now I just look like crap and tired all the time. I realise that it's probably my self esteem being so low though that is making me feel like this.
I just need a handheld, I have spoken to a few people about how I'm feeling and speak to a therapist but things are just getting on top of me today and being criticised so harshly just did a bit of a number on me.
Thanks for reading 💗