attachment issues make me feel like I’m dying

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I am really unhealthily attached to my P, like to the point where everyday I’m consumed with thoughts about him leaving me etc. I cry every single day about of fear and I constantly ask for reassurance. I genuinely feel like I’m dying when he ignores me, is upset with me, when we argue etc. I feel like I want to die when he isn’t around me and I know that if he did leave me I would definitely kill myself. I know it’s seriously unhealthy..I put him before me always and I am so scared every day of my life. We have a daughter..I thought it would make how I feel easier but it’s made it deeper and the thoughts stronger..
He knows I’m scared of him leaving/cheating but how do I explain how deeply messed up my head is.
I am really good at hiding how bad it is..always just say I’m tired when I’m crying but it’s because of my fear of abandonment. How do I even discuss this with him or with a doctor etc.

See your GP, trust me they can help to a great extent - they will understand

Well done for posting - you do need support, although it would be better to get professional help. You will feel so much better when you do.

You urgently need help, well done for reaching out. Please see a GP ASAP.

This isn't healthy and will actively damage your relationship and self esteem the longer it goes on

Well done for posting and for recognising that this is unhealthy.

Please speak to your GP and to your partner. Tell them how you feel, they can help.

Your anxiety is off the scale, please explain all of this to your GP and get some tablets and therapy. You CAN get better. Good luck

What was your childhood like?

Go and see your GP. If you think it will be difficult to speak, just print off your first post and hand it to them (or cut and paste into econsult).

You deserve an easier less stressful life and there are people who can help you get there.

This is not insurmountable, and the sooner you go for help the sooner you will start to feel better.

Your gp can help you with this. In 3-6 weeks time you will have a whole different outlook once you are more stable.

My dear friend with borderline personality disorder/EUPD as it is now gets like this with partners. But DBT has helped a lot. Speak to your GP, it can get better.

It sounds like you could do with talking to a professional, such as a counsellor. You know what your issue is which is great, many people are unable to identify that. I think now you could do with exploring why you feel like that and ways to cope with those feelings and work with them. You are halfway there already Op x

Op we can’t help you other than to tell you you need to seek urgent medical help. Mental illness is nothing to be ashamed of and help is out there, you don’t need to live like this and to be frank neither does your partner. Well done in recognising it and pick up the phone to your gp. We can’t diagnose this either, it could be many things, from anxiety to depression to a personality disorder. Just speak to your doctor. You will get help.