Hi everyone,
I was prescribed citalopram in 2017 after having a mental breakdown. I’ve made a pretty good recovery after doing lots of therapy, quitting drinking and learning how to look after myself better but I’ve started to taper off my medication and have been having some dark creeping thoughts that feel weirdly inevitable. I know it’s likely to be a withdrawal (I reduced down from 20mg to 10 over two months, then from 10 to 5 over the past month) but it feels so overwhelming to have these thoughts again I’m finding it hard to be the positive person I have learnt to become.
my partner and I are TTC and I’m even now feeling incredibly doubtful about whether I even want this (however this time 6months ago I was in full planning, optimistic mode). Feeling lost and scared that I’ll always have this darkness but really don’t want to keep taking the antidepressants. Has anyone had a similar experience?