Afraid and can't see how I can carry on?

[Halli2020]

I've had a lot of loss around me. I lost my baby son last year, then my nan, then my family stopped talking to me for various reasons (disagreement). My mum is severely unwell mentally, I have noone except my partner and my new baby. I should be happy I have my new baby but I can't help thinking he's better off without me, I constantly think he's going to die too and I get anxiety over anything about him. I found out an ex partner ended his life too and since then I haven't really been out the house and I just don't want to do anything. I have no friends to talk with, I don't want to see anyone, don't have a relationship with partners family. Everything just feels a bit shit and I'm scared of speaking to gp as I'm convinced they're going to take my son away from me...

Bloody hell, you have had to endure an awful lot😥 it’s no wonder you’re struggling
Please reach out, there is support out there-
it’s v v unlikely they will take your son away from you, they will want to help. You are not alone xx

@WorriedMillie sometimes I feel alone:(

You’ve been through so much, it’s no wonder you feel isolated and down. Please believe that you are yoir son’s whole world, he needs and loves you. And although today is dark, there will be brighter days, days when you’ll smile, when you’ll feel happy and even excited about something that happens, or that you see. Please talk to your GP or health visitor, they won’t judge you. Be gentle and kind to yourself 💐

You’re never alone on mumsnet, you’ve taken the first step reaching out by posting.. Have you joined any other threads, there are some great discussions going on and your contribution will be welcomed 😊

Go see your GP to get support in your area, any person who has been through all that would need counselling and maybe some anxiety medication.. being a new mom is tricky enough without the extras.. bless you please, there’s loads of people out there who genuinely want to help you.. you just have to tell them the truth and find the help you need move past this difficult time. We all need help sometimes, it’s ok, start with your GP… look at mind website .. take care …

@Halli2020 lots and lots of women suffer anxiety and depression (PND) after a baby and for you, with all your losses, it must be so hard. However, GP's and health visitors can't and don't take all those babies away at all- they look to help mums cope better in the situations they are in, so through support, anti-depressants, therapy, groups and so on. Please do reach out to your health visitor or make an appointment to speak with a GP about how you are feeling,

You have been through a lot and that does take its toll, can you tell your partner how you are feeling and ask for their support to get some support for yourself?