Lost

[Irishgene]

I'm struggling to even write how I'm feeling because I feel overwhelmed, exhausted and confused.

I'm on 100mg sertaline for anxiety.

I set up my own business in 2020 which is doing well so I left my 'proper job' this year. Business going well but very stressful.

I feel like a crap mum, my husband points our flaws and is constantly saying when I "need" to do....including picking up things I do or don't do with the children. He's very quick to remind me how supportive he's being but claims often I don't suppler him and that how I am affects everyone and I should have contacted a therapist from a list of names he sent me. I found my own but didn't find the sessions overly helpful.

I get waves of wishing I wasn't here which happens when things aren't great with my OH. I couldn't leave my children so wouldn't do it but it certainly crosses my mind.

I just want a straight forward,less stressful job and a break and a good night's sleep. I feel so exhausted.

Don't even know what I'm looking for, I just don't have anymore to talk to.

A handhold@Irishgene
Thinking of you

I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. It sounds like you have a lot on your plate. There will be others along with practical advice but just wanted to say you’ve done an amazing job setting up your own business while having a family and a husband who seems to be more critical than supportive. Thinking of you. Am here if you need to talk. I suffer from anxiety too

Sorry you're feeling so lost, you must have had an exhausting couple of years.

But you've done an amazing job setting up a successful business! Just here to congratulate you on that. Could you outsource a few things now the cashflow is established?

Hi @Irishgene
Checking in to let you know I'm still thinking about you all the way over here in the US

just wondering..is your business based on a service or do you have physical products and merchandise?
Since you've everything set up for the business, you can sell it and get a less stressful job since you'll have a good sum of money from the sale...many people don't realize the value of their business...it's something like 3 times the sales for one year ( can't remember exact sums, but I know it's something like this)
I applaud your get up and go to grow a successful business and even more so during covid...it takes a lot of fortitude and sacrifice to start and run a business...also, thinking outside of the box must be a big strength for you!
A business broker is someone who can help you sell your business if you decide to go that route since it is causing you so much stress. Good luck, although you don't need it because you're a hard worker who can turn anything into a success. Stay strong...your husband should be encouraging you and support you...I'm sorry if he is making you feel anything less than that.