Not celebrating Wedding anniversary

[OrangeySunset]

I'm struggling today as it's my husband and I 8 year wedding anniversary we are not celebrating it because we are going to break up. I want to wait until youngest goes to school.

My husband is very good at surpressing the reality of what's going on and just be light hearted about everything. I can't do that. I feel awful. I hate being in limbo but just don't feel ready mentally to do it any sooner. Also financially it would be very difficult to do it now.

I feel so bad about how my eldest will cope as he is such a sensitive sole, I hope it doens break him. He always looks forward to "family days" and he won't get that once we have broken up.

I wish my husband was willing to work at things but he's not. I'm that typical wife that hopes for their husband to change.

Any support appreciated. Thanks

So sorry @OrangeySunset, that sounds really tough. Have you had any counselling? I found it incredibly helpful when working out whether to/when to break up with my ex.

I think you need a quicker out.. I am assuming it is at least till next September.. it doesn't sound like you can do it for that long.

Yes I'm having fortnightly counselling.

I honestly can't see a way to do it any sooner because of many reasons mainly finances though.

I don't know when the best time would be to tell my eldest. Obviously not anytime soon.