Depression

[missrosexx]

I don't really know where to start here.. I feel so numb and dark, I can't eat without feeling ill, I'm constantly crying, nobody around me understands my pain, I don't know how to pull myself out of this, I've been here before but not in a long time and it took a long time to feel okay again. I have nobody to talk to about the way I feel.

Perhaps start by offloading some more on here - even if just to continue from where you left off above, with no one judging you. Is there something specific that’s triggered you feeling this way again?

I suppose im just not happy in life, my relationship is constant arguments and mentally draining, I work full time, look after my child and keep the house clean, I never find time for myself to even eat let alone self care, and when I get upset I'm told to stop being silly. Living like this for so long has just made me numb and sad. I don't see light anymore really, going back a year ago I was 9 ish stone, today I'm 7"9 I do try to eat but where I forget most of the time it's making me feel unwell everytime I do, the only person who brings me happiness is my son, and then he goes to sleep at night and I'm left in my thoughts all over again.

I imagine a lot of us on here can identify with what how you feel. I think what helps a lot of mums is finding something you can do for yourself , that acts as some ‘me time ‘ but might also involve exercise / sport , or socialising , or both. This might well help to lift your mood. Remember self care is about having some time to yourself, to be you, and it’s not selfish or a bad thing do do that. Do you work ? Even if that was not a option when DC was young, if he /she is older you could look at a job or volunteering to help you feel like there is life outside those four walls and life beyond your thoughts .