I really can't do this. Idk what to do.

[Inkdrinker]

Basically, my mental health is in the gutter. I'm extremely low and I'm finding everything so hard.

I started a new job 3 months ago which I love but I'm so depressed I can't do it right now. I'm currently doing a nightshift which I'll be doing for next 3 days. It's 8pm to 8 am. I'm currently in work bathroom crying, because I can't do this. I don't know what to do. I just know I'm breaking down.

Are you on medication or under a doctor's supervision? This sounds like something you can't just pull yourself out of.

I'm on medication but it doesn't feel like it's working.

I think I'm going to call in sick tomorrow but I'll probably end up getting fired but I mentally can't do it right now.

Idk what to do. If my Dr signs me off sick, I'll be fired and I just don't know what I'll do.

Call in sick and think it over. Also if you love your job, talk over your situation with your doctor and your employer and see if you can make an action plan. Better to be open with them about it and they will hopefully be supportive.

Why cant I just be normal and work?
I finally found something I'm good at and depression always takes everything away from me.

I'm going to speak to my manager on Monday and open up about my depression.

It is not as unusual as you think. My husband is the exact same. Therapy helps, especially CBT, and keep trying medications until you find one that works. Hating yourself on top of the depression doesn't help! Just acknowledge your feelings and then find a way out of it. It will take time, and hopefully work will help you too, but talk to yourself like a friend and cheer yourself on rather than tearing yourself down.

How long have you been on the medication?

I don't think you can be fired for being signed off sick.

I am in a similar position in that I have been struggling mentally for 6 weeks and have had a dose increase of my meds to see if that helps. I an not sure that it is really working properly as my initial improvement seems to be stalling / going backwards this week.

Work is very helpful for me and helps in my recovery, but yesterday for the first time my boss had to pull me into the office and threaten to send me home due to the state I was in. This really shook me and I am bow terrified what will happen if I continue to have difficulties at work and they stop me from working.

Thank you. That hit quite hard because I don't think ever spoke to myself like a friend. I'm normally just full of criticism for myself because I don't feel like I do anything well.

I rang my mum to tell her that I'll be going into work on Monday to explain how my depression is effecting everything. She rolled her eyes and said well basically you're just not bothered to go to work. When I said it wasn't that at all, she smirked and said OK.

No wonder why I've always hated myself tbh.

2+ years, I've tried so many different medication. I'm starting to think that medication isn't the key tbh. I've asked and asked for trauma therapy and I'm just told I'm on a waiting list.

I'm really sorry that you're feeling the same way. Depression is awful, I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. Take the break from work, it sounds like you need it ❤️ xx

I've managed to have some breakfast today and a smoothie for lunch which is a big thing for me.

I've made a small dent in the cleaning, I can actually see my bedroom floor which is a start. Downstairs is now at an OK level of tidiness. So at least I've done something. I'm tired now even though it sounds like nothing, it's a big thing for me

Well done! I have a chronic illness and some days I don't have the energy to eat or get out of bed. It's awful and I feel lazy. But then I realised, on the days I feel good I do get out of bed and get dressed and it's no big deal. You don't feel well right now, but when you do feel better you'll be able to do more. So give yourself a break! Good luck tomorrow xx

PS your mother sounds

Can you factor some Excercise in somewhere? Put a timer on your phone and walk for 15 minutes to your park or footpath.. even if you don’t feel like it , it will help your mood and sleep…

Your mothers sounds a cow see as little as possible while you get help and loving support obviously not from her. What is it with these toxic families? I broke contact with mine 15 years and no won’t be going back See gp again tell work if you can. Hugs.