Hi everyone,
this could be a long one so I do apologise.
Bit of background, me and my ex partner were together for 5 years and has 2 beautiful boys (5&2) He was always very controlling in the relationship he chose what I wore wasn’t allowed to have my hair done or wear makeup. He chose who I could and couldn’t be friends with, if I ever wanted to go out he would cause a massive argument so I wouldn’t end up going. We split up just over a year ago, but I had a stupid moment and we slept together which has resulted in pregnancy. From the day I found out he tried to bully me into getting rid of it. He also told me what a terrible mother I would be if I kept it because he would never want it and he would never love it. He would always ignore it when he was around to see our other 2 children. I found out he was in a relationship with someone else and that’s why he couldn’t have anything to do with it. I decided to keep the baby (still currently pregnant) I couldn’t go through with an abortion. Since I told him I was keeping it he took all of his anger out on our 2 children physically, verbally and emotionally abusing them. Social services got involved and he was not allowed to see the children until the investigation was completed. Things started to look up me and my boys could go out and enjoy ourselves and we didn’t need to be back at certain times for him to see the boys when suites him. He then paid somebody to start following us to see where we went and who we were with. The threats then started of whoever we were with would end up either in a body bag or with their legs broken so they wouldn’t walk again. My children couldn’t see their friends anymore because he said the parents would end up not walking again. So we now have to sit at home and not go out of the house he’s threatened that if we go near anybody he will be taking me to court for full custody of the boys as he is now allowed to see them under supervised visits. I feel completely trapped and there is nothing we can do. The police can’t do anything because he hasn’t harmed anybody yet. He’s also threatened that if his new girl finds out about this baby then he will take it and make sure that I never see it again. I’ve never felt so alone and I’m at a loss of what to do. I’m now questioning would my children be better off if I wasn’t here because this is no life for them. I don’t really know what to expect from this I guess it’s just writing it down. Thank you if you got this far and thank you for taking the time to read 💗