wish theyd never been born,so sad for all of them

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Its shit,my little boy whimpers against his daddys leg when we part from him,they see him daily and weekends and im run ragged.Our kiddies pines so badly i wish i hadnt had them,im dealing with the aftermath of the SECOND lot of my kids not living with their daddy anymore,bad day,drinking and weeping.It probably sounds like self pity,but i hold it together for weeks at a time,then break down.Seeing gp tomorrow cos self harm injury last april causing increasing disability in left arm and needing surgery,and im drinking too much.
I guess its obvious to regulars on here that im tyedye.

Sorry to hear things are shit for you at the moment.

You have made appt to see GP, that's a really positive step - why not tell GP about all your concerns, particularly the drinking ?

Im working myself up to that,very ashamed of it though

i guess hv can help,ive had to change surgeries which was really hard,my hv helped me with the violent behaviour from my exe,and it was really hard to leave there

HV is a good idea, yours sounds great.

She was,but now i have to meet a new one,and explain the whole sorry mess

Stop being ashamed of yourself, that doesn't help at all. Drinking will only make you more depressed. Just concentrate on eating well and getting lots of sleep, talk to your GP about everything, I am sure s/he has heard everything before. Take care of yourself, happy mummy=happy children and a single parent family can be as marvellous as any!
Good luck in getting through this hard time, remember life won't be like this forever

It might help you to write down all of your worries, then if you burst into tears you can thrust the list at the Dr or HV.

Hopefully someone with more practical advice will be along

I do that daily,the positive stuff like you say,but this morning my little boy sagged in his carseat when we said bye to daddy,and was withdrawn and pale,its 7 months since we left,and hes getting worse,not better

i live in a caravan amongst the mouldering remains of a relatives crufts dream,13 dogs,large ones and assoc shit,noise and distress

13 dogs? No wonder you are depressed! What can you do about that?

shes promised to whittle down the numbers,but loves them like babies.eugh