Invited out but too anxious to go

[caramac04]

I’ve not been out for a few years, definitely pre-Covid.
I’ve been invited out with old workmates who I’d love to see but I’ve wound myself up and feel ‘stuck’
its somewhere I’ve never been and I’d have to arrive on my own. As ever, feel like I’ve nothing to wear.
I know I’d enjoy myself and there are strategies I could use to get me there iyswim but I know I won’t.
My DD’s will be upset both for and with me and that makes me feel worse.
I always do this, get excited then make an excuse not to go. What is wrong with me? Nobody would know I’m an idiot b

You won’t if you “know” you won’t.
Maybe it’s time to make a change. You’ll miss out on so much if you never go out.
Can you meet up with someone to walk in with? Can you suss out the venue before?

I do the same.

Tonight I have said I will attend an event and am sat in my car with 2 mins to go.

I drove most of the way and now meeting someone just outside the city so I dont have to drive in the part I dont know or walk in alone. Could you try to do similae?

Still feeling very sick and anxious about it all but theres no backing out now.