Volatile

[EmmaH2022]

Feeling really down today

And very volatile

You know when you think everything's okay but the smallest thing sets you off...that.

took me three and a half hours to get home from work yesterday, cried en route. Now feeling very tearful, haven't cried about anything in ages (except my moving home fell through which still upsets me but I thought I'd got past that).

anyone?
just need a pat on the head!

Let it all out. A good cry can be very therapeutic, even if it isn’t immediately clear what it’s about.

Thank you for replying
I always feel awful after crying. I don't know what's going on, I was quite perky.

life just seems oddly hard work sometimes.

It certainly does! Sorry that crying hasn’t been helpful. How are you spending the rest of the day?

I'm waiting for a client to send in some more work, it's just proofing so I'll be done by about 5.30.

I should do a workout after that but the boiling hot flat I live in makes it hard - still hasn't cooled down.

maybe I'll go to the cinema. I think I might need to up my meds again, which is annoying as it makes me grind my teeth more.

my best friend and sister are away. I joined a couple of activities that aren't meeting in August.

perhaps tomorrow will be better.

Yes, August can be a really odd, flat time. Go for the cinema - A/C and a distraction 👍

Thank you so much for engaging Sparkling

I have done a workout as I realised it was the best thing. I do feel better though my legs don't want to go to the bus stop now. That's okay, I just needed to shift my headspace.

I almost forget what I need to do for better mental health and last night threw me completely.

Well done you! I always do the comforting things, never the workout when I’m down. I need to reconsider…

Sparkling being mostly desk based and living in a small flat is part of it, there's no chance of getting exercise through normal daily life.

Hope tomorrow is better.

Thank you, I think it will be.

@EmmaH2022 also hoping for a better tomorrow for you.

I've had a difficult time lately & started HRT instead of anti depressants 2 months ago. I had an online speed awareness class tonight & had some awful laptop issues so was 2 mins late-the tutor was so rude & had a pop at me for not having laptop checked. Wasnt interested when I said I had checked it earlier & had just gone wrong. He told the rest of the group that 'someone' had arrived with a chip on their shoulder! Eventually issues moving into another device meant I had to miss out on the course as it said he'd kicked me out. I cried for 2 hours & beforehand I was just thinking I was slowly feeling better. My perspective is totally skewed. It's not me either & it feels shit.

There will be better times ahead. You just need to ride this out. Be kind to yourself

buck sorry that happened, he sounds an arse.

today is better so far!