Dreading holiday aboard, have been prescribed diazepam

[Danceswithduck]

I really don’t want to go. I didn’t want to go when dh booked it but gave in under duress and it was booked six months ago so I hoped I’d feel better.

I feel worse. I have some days now where I can’t get out of bed at all. I’m on sertraline which seemed to help but now I’m on the maximum dose. I’ve been open with the GP about having suicidal thoughts and an effective plan that I think I will end up using at some point.

I am so anxious about going abroad. I have some health concerns which are worse in the heat and I don’t like flying. I didn’t like it even when I was well and my MH was ok. The thought of doing it now is making me feel panicky 24/7. We are booked to go in two weeks time and I know I’ve no choice.

the GP has prescribed diazepam. Presumably I just take it as and when I can’t cope? We are away for twelve nights which seems a really long time. I’m not sure how I’m going to get through it - I basically don’t feel safe when I think about it. I know it’s ridiculous and I need a grip but I’m not choosing to feel this way.

Handhold. I get terrible anxiety going abroad. I got myself in a terrible state before our last holiday but i actually really enjoyed it in the end. Diazepam is good stuff. I take it at night sometimes when intrusive thoughts overwhelm me

Take the diazepam for the next few days to just wind yourself down a bit. You sound very stressed.

Can you reduce the amount you're away? How long is the flight?

You always have the option of not going. That's your right. It wasn't fair of your DH to book it if he knew you weren't 100% on board with the idea so if he ends up going on his own so be it. You ALWAYS have a choice.

I am a bit annoyed with DH. He knows that I find it super stressful and basically he does nothing in the way of getting ready.
I always have to do all the packing, sorting out, then he sits by himself on the plane and I have a dc either side of me. When we are there I sort the kids and he lies by the pool.
He says this time will be different but I’m not convinced. I always feel like it’s the same crap as at home but in a less convenient location.
I really don’t like it and I don’t want to go. However DH has built it up to the dc so I don’t think I’ve much option.

Don't go. He can take the children

Yeah honestly if he's not going to do his share, don't facilitate something you actively don't want to do. Strength op. It's sounds hard. I hope there are better days ahead for you.