Hi 👋. For a while now I have just really wanted to talk to someone about how I am feeling. I had my first baby at the age of 21. At that time I had just met my now husband and we fell pregnant within 3 months of being together. My parents took it so bad, they where not very nice to me throughout my pregnancy.
After the baby was born my now husband couldn’t stay with me and made me give my baby my maiden name instead of his fathers surname. I was made to feel dirty for having sex outside of marriage. At the time I just wanted everything to be ok so I followed what they wanted, trying my best to somehow overcome their disappointment. Their main gripe was that we had a baby outside of marriage and probably to someone I had only just met, I was also in my final year of a degree.
Me and my parents have never really talked about this time. I managed to finish my degree and am now happily married with a fifth baby on the way. Me and my husband have done pretty well for ourselves and are proud of what we had to come through.
Anyways to cut a long story short my eldest sister is now pregnant with her fist baby. Everyone was overjoyed at her pregnancy, she is not married but is in a stable relationship. I feel so jelous that she gets to experience her first pregnancy in a way that was so different to mine. Memories of my first pregnancy and nasty comments made about me are recirculating in my mind. I haven’t talked about how I feel and to be honest I don’t think it would go down well if I did. I’m trying to distance myself from my family but it’s difficult when my parents ring me daily and drop over unannounced. There has always been tension in our relationship.
Maybe this is something I need to talk about and let it all come crashing down around me if they don’t like what I have to say. Can anyone give me some advice as to how to approach it? Thanks 😊