I'm really struggling right now with mental health and really feel like im going crazy. So I was in a relationship with a narcissistic man for 10+years. I'm currently stuck in another toxic relationship. Loads of things has happened in current relationship. Which has made things alot worse. Im a overthinker and brain never seems to switch of even when im asleep i dream of it. Ive had bad insomnia too. So I decided to start therapy. this made me realise how badly messed up I am. Any way this was on Saturday. Early hours Monday morning I was in bed and couldn't sleep. I had this awful feeling of panic and stress hit me and could feel my heart pounding then all of the sudden I felt this rage like I have never experienced before. So I got up and dressed grabbed a hammer and drove to my narc exes wanting to smash his car up. I couldnt find the car so I found a brick and chucked it through his living room window. I'm not a violent or aggressive person and this is totally out of character for me. It felt like I was totally out of control I broke down when I got home now I feel completely numb. Has anyone else had these experiences?