Do you know how many identities are a part of you? No, I thought I did know at one time but now I think there's some I didn't know about.
And are you aware of your triggers? Some of them, my outgoing case manager is definitely one, and I have been saying this for months but they have always refused for her to step aside, until now, but the new treatment plan not only removes my case manager it removes my group therapy (which to be honest I don't want to do right now but may want to do in the future)
Have you tried setting up camera in your home for when you can't recall what has happened you can watch? Yes, we have one in the bedroom so I know night's are absolutely chaotic.
Do you have anyone in real life to speak to? Not really at the moment (long and outing story but some of my trauma is being splashed all over the press at the moment so things are really hard). I am avoiding people like the plague because it's very obvious some of it relates to me and I just cannot cope with talking about it with anyone. My fiance walked out on me last week as well because he just cannot cope with it anymore (which I fully understand, I cannot cope with it and he definitely does not deserve this).
Can a GP help? My GP is lovely and understanding but I am not sure what else I can ask for. The service I am under does not like patients being under other services (although some are).
I do feel my case manager needs replaced but basically they said there is not the resource and I think they are just fed up of case managing me the last few months when I have not been feeling safe.
I've had individual therapy for a long time (and am constantly told to me grateful they have offered it) but in the last 9 months, 4 people (including my long-term psychotherapist) have left from my care team; 3 from group therapy. So it's not been a very stabilising time and there's been quite a lot of dishonesty I feel throughout this time as well.
I am going to listen to Carolyn Spring whilst trying to sort out the state of my home today. It's just chaos everywhere here from when I have been dissociating.
My arm is feeling slightly better my foot is not, if I go to the GP tomorrow I can get an x ray form which at least means it can be x ray and only then will I have to go into A and E if there is a diagnosis rather than go through all the awful comments I usually get in there.
I'm sorry others have been through this. Thank you for replying.