Back on mirtazapine but mood is worse.

[dangermouseisace]

Hi
I can sleep now, which is great. However, now I’m not putting every waking moment into the effort to keep my eyes open and function, I have sunk into the most god awful despair. I usually get very dark thoughts but recognise them as just thoughts. But now it’s like I’ve had an epiphany and I can see everything clearly in the most terrible way. I don’t remember this before. I’m not sure what to do.

Hi, Sorry you are feeling like this. I recognise what you describe with the epiphany.

I have had this before and it is so scary. I genuinely believe I will never be able to "unsee" the world the way I can see it in that moment, even though I have been there and came out the other side several times before.

How long have you been back on the meds?

Thanks for your reply snowshower. Today has been better. Onwards and upwards hopefully. I'm on other meds too but only on mirtazapine (again) for a few days. I guess having the clear mindedness to think actual thoughts is a bit of a shock!