Not really sure how to start this but I need to move home due to being around here slowly eating away at what sanity I have left and was wondering if anyone knows of any charities that offer grants etc to assist with this sort of thing? Please don't suggest council, I've tried everything and theyre really not great round here or in surrounding areas. I rent privately and I'm still short of furniture from fleeing a very very 'unhealthy' relationship last year. If I brought things second hand etc and moved I'd been around £2500. Applied with my local credit union and they can't help me until I've been with them longer and even then it's unlikely to be equate to this amount. I know the whole country is struggling right now but I need to leave as soon as possible. I can't really find much on the internet in terms of grants so thought I'd see if anyone on here is more knowledgeable on them then I am or maybe they could send me in the right direction?
Multiple reasons I need to move I'll try and keep it short. The whole area is one giant trigger. So I was born around here, a project of two addicts and grew in what can only be described as a drug den. Witnessed severe abuse, was abused emotionally, physically and also severely neglected. Social services let me down massively and after getting a copy of my social records from when they were involved I got a big apology and was told to make a failure to remove claim against them. I was looking forward to this happing as the the money could help with me rebuilding my life and having a fresh start. Im in my early 20's and still deeply scarred and suffer badly from my start in life. I still jump if someone moves to fast near me and I've been diagnosed with complex PTSD. Well anyway that fell through not my doing there's a lot going on in the courts with it at the minute and how it's hard to prove liability of the social workers etc. It all blew up after a big case the other year. My solicitor told me it should all be changing in a few years and to contact them again at that point. But yeah I find it hard being in the same area that I grew up in. I can't leave the house without getting flash backs etc. Full of fear that I'll bump into my dad to who was my main abuser and still an addict. He tries to turn up at house randomly too and the emotional abuse is still dragging on in anyway he can make it happen.
I was also raped at 14 by a man, he went to prison and for a while after getting back out of prison he wasn't aloud around my area but now he's aloud again so I'm terrified of going anywhere incase I see him. I had a huge panic attack walking home from work the other night because I have no choice bu t to walk by where he lives
Also now a single mum from fleeing the relationship with my girls dad and still mentally trying to overcome that. I had to flee as it reached a point that I knew my children would start to notice. Council wouldn't offer us emergency housing or anything as me and the kids stayed on a friend's sofa. I had to take the cheapest and first house I saw and it's this one. We have beds and sofas etc but no wardrobes, drawers, the TV is broken and hardly visible.I also hate bumping into him and him turning up unannounced.
The plan is to move a an hour away, there's an area an hour up from me and it's the only place I feel any sort of peace. Im genuinely a nevrous wreck here and I need a fresh start and a breath of fresh air. It's really killing me being around here. I know life isn't fair but after all of this I just want a safe space where I can recover and be happier.
I've skipped all of the nitty gritty. But does anyone know anywhere I can go that I could possibly get some assistance?
Also incase anyone suggests, I have no family to help. Like literally none.
Thanks